Learning to Live in Spirit

One thing I have learned in my journey in motherhood is about spirit. I have lost 2 of my babies in the human form but have gained 2 spirit children. Through my experience with Bella I learned that the most important thing that keeps me connected to her is to live from my spirit. Most of us has a form of spiritual practice even if it's simply spending time in nature. For me it's living from my heart, where I believe the essence of my children are.

I believe that we all are here in spirit whether we are alive literally as a body or passed on, we exist as our true selves as divine beings. To me this is science. This is the heart, this is love and this is me, my true self. Living from my heart includes doing things daily to feel my spirit and to tune in to my divine nature. I am a divine spirit and try to live in that place daily.

From using the Avatar tools I have learned to live from my heart by uncovering myself from underneath all the beliefs and definitions that I have been hiding under my whole life without being aware of it. The definitions and stories we live in from day to day are not us, only simply how we define ourselves. After losing Bow, I have learned to appreciate my spiritual companions in there true form of spirit and honor their human experience as short as it may seem.

I think sometimes we get so attached to what we see and what we experience as humans, that we forget that it does not define us. It simply is an experience to learn from. I know we need to experience this to evolve in this life. It is our honor, our grace to have such powerful lessons as long as we can learn from them and not harbor them. We can release our attachments to our experiences and ask ourselves, what is here to be learned? It can bring powerful insights and healing. When people say that we aren't given anything that we can't handle, I believe it. I am still alive. We can handle it because we created it and attracted it to learn from. These lessons are eternal. We remain forever changed.

I choose to make it a lesson instead of a punishment. I choose to live, love and feel spirit all the time. It feels like a kindness to our children.

MTHFR- What is making us sick...?

MTHFR- A gentic mutation where one's body cannot or partially cannot process folic acid.(in my words)  This is synthetic version our folic acid that they engineered in the 70's and added to everything to help prevent birth defects. Not to be confused with folate which is awesome and comes from natural foods like lemons, oranges, greens and beans. 

Unfortunately folic acid is in nearly anything fortified, almost everything, and ironically it is making a lot of us sick without it's knowing it. When our bodies can process this it stays in our system and blocks our cells from getting the nutrients we need. Read labels!

After Boe died we were determined to make sure we were healthy and capable of having a live baby. I went to my Naturopath to find answers and an opinion. She told me about the MTHFR.  I had been feeling anxious. My husband was tired. For some people these are side effects of too much folic acid backing up in your system. It congests the cells so they can intake other nutrients. Tons of us have folic acid floating around in our bodies all the time just clogging away, even if you don't have the gene. Processing folic acid for everyone is a slow ineffective process, for people who have the mutation it is or is near impossible depending on how many copies of the gene you have. 

My husband has two copies of the mutation, I have one. I can process some folic acid and my husband none. When I was taking my prenatal vitamin that had 125% of your daily intake of folic acid, my body was on overload. (note: my prenatal was a whole food certified organic vitamin.) I was unknowingly poisoning my body and the folic acid was depriving my baby from getting the nutrients he needed.

This may have been the cause for my miscarriage, we can't say for sure but my Naturopath seems to think so. I was taking a folate vitamin with Bella but because it is in a lot of our foods, caused me to have cholestasis where my liver not functioning properly. We believe that Bella and Boe's lives were perfect and these things happen for bigger picture reasons. Some unknown or understood. Some to teach us lessons and make us stronger people.

Now with our new pregnancy the baby is growing healthy and strong. She's measuring big actually, the changes we have made in our lifestyle has helped. We quit eating food enriched with folic acid and are taking methylated folate.

I want people to know what is out there, what is in our food and the possible effects it can have on our bodies and our lives. To learn more about folic acid, mthfr.net is really helpful. There are many conditions and illnesses that folic acid may be the cause of. From blood clots to cancer, it's worth the research.